Humbled, bowed at the feet of the Guru, tears flow uncontrollably
What I share is heavily influenced by, dedicated to, and in loving appreciation of
Ramesh S Balsekar,
1917 - 2009
The very nature of what’s shared in a Guru-disciple relationship sets it apart from all others.
Whether we know it or not, what we really seek in life is a comfortableness with oneself and the other and not all the various pleasures which for a while we become obsessed and defined by. This comfortableness with Oneself is what’s left when all the false ideas are washed away and we once again recognise our connection to Source.
It is the interaction with a teacher that is so often in life what becomes intrinsically part of this washing away.
So, when all is said and done, what the Guru relationship represents is the invaluable assistance and support of the master in the process of delivering what is most valuable to another. And a great respect, great love, great gratitude, great humility and sense of awe exists around this - and tears often flow as this is appreciated in a particular moment.
The gratitude, love and respect for my Guru will endure my entire life up until death.
This is the paradox manifesting yet again - simultaneously it’s known beyond belief that what happened is not really because of the other, that no-one is there to give anything to anyone, that the Self was always there, complete, unchanged, and yet powerful feelings arise towards the teacher for what has apparently happened through them - this is a most beautiful gift.
What is shared in these teachings is heavily influenced by the teachings that Ramesh shared.Ramesh was told once by his Guru, Nisargadatta Maharaj that he would not repeat his words, and he didn’t. He came up with a set of concepts based on his own experience and shared those kindly and patiently with seekers who appeared daily at his home in Mumbai for more than 25 years.
Ramesh would often say that after being a banker for 30 years he couldn't help but approach life practically. This carried over to his spiritual search. After years of attending talks with the family Guru and not really getting the answers he was looking for, upon retirement at age 60, Ramesh decided to approach his search based on his own practical questioning and what he was able to observe and conclude for himself.
What ensued, in conjunction with the insights shared by his then Guru Sri Nisargadatta Maharaj was an enquiry which brought about not only answers but a falling away of all questions. In practical terms Ramesh would say that he sought personal happiness and became enlightened, which according to his own definition of the word "enlightenment" is peace of mind in daily living, or in other words the absence of suffering.
The basis of Ramesh’s teaching was the concept of predetermination and non-doership. In brief he would say that all of life was a happening according to God’s Will and that you and the other were not the doers of what happened through the body.
When this understanding becomes total the belief of a separate individual falls away and ones connection to Source becomes seen. What is seen is that the body is an expression of Source, or Source functioning through the body. This realisation is accompanied by the falling away of the load of guilt, blame and pride for it becomes clear that whatever happens and whatever the outcomes, all are happening according to God’s will and not our own doing.
This principle of non-doership applies to everything including the teachings which flowed effortlessly from Ramesh’s mouth day after day. Nevertheless Ramesh would often remark how impressed he was with the clarity of the concepts. He commented not with pride but with a genuine fascination and curiosity as he observed the teachings flow out effortlessly and go to work, a fact he simply couldn't deny.
He could also tell that the teachings were something different, still pure Advaita but approaching the subject from a daily living perspective rather than the typical esoteric approach. And also a teaching that was useful in clearing up some of the confusion that so often manifested in front of him in the form of a confused and frustrated seeker that had accumulated a load of spiritual concepts many of which creating more suffering than peace and needing to be simplified or culled.
I am sure that Ramesh always hoped that the teachings would carry on after he died in as close to it's original format as possible.
For a long time when I first met Ramesh I would often want to change the words around to frame what was being said in my own words and view of life - Ramesh was always quite consistent and would rarely agree that a change of wording was necessary, I soon came to see why. Each time I believed something could be said better or was not quite right, within a short period of head banging against the wall it became quite clear that my view was off and that the carefully chosen words had helped correct the error. After a while there was a surrendering to this fact and I stopped trying to change the words or second guess the concepts, there was just an absorbing of what was said and sure enough with the aid of a little self-enquiry and personal investigation I'd find my view change and the words would fit so perfectly that the concepts seemed to merge with the seeing and fall away.
And so when I started talking myself, albeit very much from my own direct experience and understanding, the words at times came out in an almost identical fashion to those used by Ramesh. I sometimes wondered whether it was necessary for the words to be different but given the history I’ve described it was quickly concluded to be in the best interest to allow whatever came to flow, and know that the more close to the original the bigger the smile on Ramesh’s face.
This subject came up in conversation recently with a dear friend who was also very close to Ramesh and had written a book summarising his teaching. Upon completion of the book and noticing that the words were virtually the same as what Ramesh would say daily in Satsang he quizzed Ramesh on this and whether it was right to put his name to the book. Ramesh with a reassuring and approving tone gave an answer which was very much inline with another of the central explanations - that being the concept that whatever happens through the body moment after moment is a result of ones genes and up-to-date conditioning. The words Ramesh put to the question were “as it goes in, so it comes out”.
Ramesh would often say in Satsang "make no mistake, what is being put forward here is simply fresh conditioning".
Jai Ramesh Guru!