Roger's BLOG
You're off duty
The mind is always working, trying to find a solution. This movement in itself IS the problem. It is the ultimate hamster wheel.
"I want to know my mission in life? what is my purpose?" which seems like such a helpful thought process is in itself the problem. If it drops there is no longer a problem.
It is counter intuitive to think that a problem will be solved by stopping to think about it. But no surprise, when it comes to knowing oneself, which lies outside the realm of causality, the laws of logic no longer apply.
That's why counter intuitive now makes sense. Like, run towards the fear and not away from it.
Ironically it is the mind that needs to understand this in order for a stop to happen.
Grace, is the mind getting this and the spontaneous stopping which follows.
You're off duty, go home to the heart.
The dissolved state of no person
Try to live in the dissolved state of no person and you'll see for yourself that life just won't let that be there indefinitely, that state is just simply not the end of the road.
For a while we'll insist that it's the other way round, that life isn't being lived in the dissolved state of no person because we haven't come to the end of the road. We're sure that the freedom we're looking for means the dissolution of the person. I say this from personal experience.
If we're honest we might even see that this state of no person is being used to bypass the suffering which is still rising from the undissolved root. It is this false root that needs to be dissolved and not the person.
And if we are stuck in the belief that the person will one day completely dissolve, no worries, thankfully we're not in control, life's got this. It takes us where we need to go, sometimes slowly but surely.
Life does this by continually correcting the intellect that got stuck believing it's current position. Then the stuckness unsticks. Life always delivers a new thorn to uproot the one currently embedded in our thumb.
Keep it practical and you're less likely to get caught up in philosophical standpoints. By practical I mean remain focused on what you're really, from your own experience, looking for. You'll find it's happiness for yourself, the person in daily living. Ask yourself, what really is this and what does it really look like?
Don't get stuck on old concepts and teachings that have helped get you this far, even if fleeting experiences seem to support them. That's the trick life plays for a while to keep us stuck. Life sticks us and unsticks us.
These states and realisations of no person are profound, they are there to show us something, to give us new insight, insight which then needs to be integrated into everyday daily living where life is lived 'as if' the person is real. The deep insights remain and become the basis of our ongoing peace of mind, but not as a state or experience but deeply embedded in the being human experience.
We then live life with the deep non-intellectual conviction that we are not the doers, the others are not the doers and that our happiness is not dependent on outcomes in the flow of life. This means the end of suffering in daily living, or in other words continuous unbroken peace of mind even when life is painful, physically, emotionally or finincially.
Jai Sri Ramesh Balsekar
Connection to Source
It is when the ego surrenders the prized belief in personal doership which has been held so dear, like a piece of fool's gold, that the truly precious ever present connection to Source is revealed.
Believing that I am the 'doer' and the other is the 'doer' translates to a view of ourselves as separate and independent entities, that is the separation which has happened. Truly it is not there.
The prize is in the chest
Our true essence isn't touched by life the way that the self image of ourselves is. Return home often to the Heart of Being to keep verifying this for yourself.
And if you don't know this place of Being, I tell you it's the very core of every human, so be curious.
The prize is in the chest not in the head, in the field prior to thought.
And once we're in-touch with the depth of our Being the false stories that were believed to be true no longer have ground to stand on and become ghostlike and eventually fade away completely.
Ignorance
If ignor-ing of the ever present essence of our humanness happens, that's ignor-ance
Diving deep
The deeper the depth we know ourselves to exist at, the less effected or concerned we are with what happens on the surface.
I am That
"I am That, living as This"
~ Sri Ramesh Balsekar
One
The spiritual heart is the junction point where Impersonal Consciousness of Source links to a particular body, flowing through that vehicle and expressing uniquely as Personal Consciousness, or Rogerness in this case. This is not unique to one or two or just a few but common to all.
Resting in the heart reveals the primordial expression of Source as impersonal I Amness.
This is the only place to intuit what is prior to I Am and to simultaneously live what is after. From here the personal is Known to not be seperate from the impersonal, we are always connected to Source.
The backbone of the personal is I Amness. Live life as the personal knowing the impersonalness of it all. Peace
Being is
Gravity is, prior to and independent of the theory of gravity.
Being is, prior to thinking. Be that.
Forced to blame
With a particular belief in place of who we are and therefore of what amounts to an attack against us, we are forced to hold onto the past and continue blaming the other.
Letting go of blame would equate to a deep lack of self respect relative to this self image.