Many body functions clearly present themselves as not my doing, the heart pumping and the liver cleansing.
Others present very differently, as very much my doing, the brain thinking and the head turning.
How different are they really, except for the feeling that says they are?
Not disconnected, only covered up
We've never been disconnected from Source, for sometime this connection is covered up, by the belief that I am the 'doer' the 'thinker'.
Infusion and ... error
Like a divine percolation, after 900 days and nights it was complete - the sacred sense I am this body, was infused.
what came next was the perfect error
Some really good news
When the most important thing is not the most important thing, life lets us know by inserting an ever growing feeling of discontent.
And one day when the feeling surpasses the fear, priorities are reassessed and the bravery to make the change is there. In that moment of finally letting go, listening to the sign from within and choosing differently, we feel the undeniable relief and know the error has been corrected.
And afterwards the sense is always of surprise, that what seemed so fearful delivers such freedom, what took us so long?
When the most important thing is the most important thing we are at peace.
Please whatever you do don't believe
A belief is a concept which is being related to as truth.
This is probably the single most valuable insight one can have in the process of uprooting belief.
A concept is always relative, it is never absolute. In relating to a concept as truth we are mistaking the relative for the absolute.
This mistaking the relative as absolute, not only in relation to concepts but also objects and feelings etc, is the cause of forgetting who we truly are.
Everything I have written here is a concept, don't believe a word of it. It's accurate though.
The only Truth in the manifestation is the impersonal sense of I Am.
A wise realisation
If you do something foolish today and realise it just happened that's very wise.
Happy New Year
In the next 24 hours you will be wished happiness and will wish happiness on others more than at any other time in the upcoming year.
Maybe it's a good time, just for fun, to pause and consider exactly what, in practical terms, that constitutes.
There is thought but no thinker!! Think about that!
No really, think about it.
The universe is not broken
T'is it not a bitter activist who is attached to a particular outcome!
A happy one knows that they may stand, the outcome not in their control, either way life goes on as intended.
When tools are put down for the day, let activist and developer all share drink and a meal, if not there is hatred, a fate far more severe than any other development.
Isn't it sad and peculiar how us humans so easily forget that the universe is not broken just because we don't understand it. It is never broken even when concrete jungles are built.
The false idea of who we are, the small self, which is what automatically reacts with the flow of life and becomes suffering, is contained in the body, locked away in the unresolved events of the past.
So intentionally, with curiosity and reason, go there to feel and understand.
This happens when those feelings which are often triggered and linger as a dull sensation in the body are encouraged to flower fully rather than the ingrained habit of suppressing and distracting.
When this is consciously allowed and the intense underlying feelings of shame and hatred towards oneself and the other for what happened show themselves, we are able to see the difference between our current attitude to life - all a happening and not anyone's doing - compared to the historic attitude locked away at the core of those feelings.
This recognition of the difference in our conscious attitude and what is locked away in the unconscious is the atonement. This is the washing away, the dissolving.
This is the difference between simply expressing emotions which can go on seemingly endlessly versus expressing and release.
It can seem counter-intuitive at first to encourage these feelings to bloom, but now we know why it is important for these feelings to become our friend and be felt. This is a crucial movement in the falling away of the false belief of who we are.
The body starts to feel lighter and lighter, and the true formless, untouched Self is able to come more and more into focus.
The same thing from another angle
If you find yourself on a spiritual journey which traverses you away from societal norms and you ever succumb to doubts that maybe you should be doing something more productive, that walking aimlessly through a park, or not having the motivation for certain old relationships, is, as many around you may suggest, a dysfunction, then consider this:
This quest is the most valid, rewarding and productive project you will ever embark upon.
Surrendering to lying on the couch from time to time, or often, is part of the project methodology.
See it this way and whatever your movement, as long as it driven by the search for Truth, is most valid and important - others will not have this vision - hold onto it firmly and that won't matter.
If you are asked what you are doing in life you can say:
I'm undertaking a research project into the nature of life and the amazing dynamics of inter human relationships, my findings so far have the potential to change life as we know it.
Awareness is the only Subject.
The body is an object in that awareness. Thoughts and thinking are objects in that awareness. The entire momentary experience is an object in that awareness.
Thinking about this is an object in awareness.
Be the awareness that is aware of the objects and Know Thyself.
Peace and Love
Only one problem
There is truly only one problem for the human being.
It gets addressed with the question, WHO AM I?
If you look at your life and find that this quest is your priority, regardless of how smooth or tough the road is, it would not be inappropriate to fall to your knees, bow down to Source and feel very blessed.
Unhappiness is the by-product of the reaction between, the belief there is of who we are, and, the flow of life.
An involuntary flood of feelings
Feelings such as despair sometimes flood the system uncontrollably as if injected intravenously, it is an energetic flood.
Often contained in this energy there is the absolute absence of any objectivity.
Coming to see it more and more often as an involuntary flood of energy and not your doing can lead to a witnessing and relaxation with the feeling when it happens.
An act of kindness
A spontaneous act of kindness is a great gift you'll receive today and will warm your heart unimaginably
Life is not what it appears to be
Isn't it wonderful when life starts unfolding in ways that get us suspecting that it's not at all as it appears on the surface.
A long list of shoulds and shouldnt's
Spiritual bravery is a gift of grace, it is the courage to start following what we feel to do rather than what we think we should or shouldn't do based on an attachment to outcomes. The most incideous attachment we tend to have is the desire to receive approval from others.
Freedom in practical terms really takes off when we start questioning our large list of shoulds and shouldnt's, seeing why they have been put in place and remain, and then start following our heart.
Recognise what's looking through your eyes, and shame is no more.
We then hold our head gently high always ready to meet the same in the other.
If only it would all magically change
If the content of life magically changed such that it became utopian, anyone who is currently discontent or unfulfilled would find themselves more or less just as unhappy.
Isn't it about time we realised deeply where our happiness really stems from. This refocusing dissolves the unconscious beliefs which keep us in constant fear and resistance to life and those around us.
And from this place of receptivity we are able to appreciate the wonder of life that exists right now instead of being in a state of resistance and waiting for things to one day be ok.
What we truly ARE in essence is unimaginably profound.
Be That, peace and love, for now.
Surrender turns out to be the biggest victory. Isn't life a paradox!
As we extend to ourselves the freedom to be as we are, to do as we feel, we find it's not long before we can't help affording the same freedom to everybody else.
I make plans, but they're always written in 4H pencil.
Engaging in any practice only when you feel to and because you like it, is a very advanced spiritual practice.
Let life flow!
There is a field...
In each moment, there's a field that lies behind thinking, drop back often, rest there - that's spiritual cardio.
Allow the centre of consciousness to drift down from the head into the chest as if pulled by gravity, soften and open your gaze so that the whole vista fits in, no need to focus on anything, allow everything to be as it is, the body itself becomes part of the vista, seeing and hearing are happening from the chest now - you're there, in the field prior to all objects.
If you're always going somewhere you'll never BE anywhere. Just STOP & you're there
Field of Being
Remember often, that there is a field of Being in which all the 'becoming' happens.
Self realisation never happens in the head cause the home of Being is the heart.
Origin of thought
Next time you have a brilliant thought, ask yourself from where it came.
When I feel to pray.....I consider carefully what it is I say.