Life puts the misunderstanding in place...
...and life undoes it.
Three weeks ago a brave, ambitious group of life trekkers embarked on a 21 day live-in retreat with me in the Perth Hills.
Today we all leave different people.
15 participants from around the globe gathered to further what could easily be seen as the most valuable project a person could undertake - a project of better understanding inter-human relationships and the nature of life and Self, with a focus on peace and happiness in daily living.
We had a great time; dived deep, changed our minds, changed them again, made friends and trod where few dare to go.
It was an honour. Namaste
Thinking slows down only after the topic of thinking has been given much thought.
Handle with care
self images are very fragile
Your essence on the other hand, is the most robust thing in the universe.
The implication of the notion of non-doership is that life is truly magical.
Let's not forget that this quest in the end is about peace of mind in daily living.
Invitation into a vast, timeless dimension
Close your eyes, sit silently for a few minutes, then focus attention onto what you call the back of your eyelids.
Notice that attention here opens the door into a vast timeless, boundary free dimension that engulfs you peacefully. Enter anytime.
Feel free to leave your thoughts at the door, only you are invited. And if any follow you in, you don't need to talk back to them.
The floating apple
When seen for what LIFE essentially is, even the floating past of an apple, should it happen, would be fathomable - surprising yet fathomable.
Fathomable, would be the presence of extreme pleasure, the presence of extreme pain, and everything in-between.
Fathomable, would be the presence of suffering (surprising yet fathomable), its absence, and everything inbetween.
Fathomable, would be the floating past of an apple - surprising yet fathomable.
Dinosaurs and Consciousness
At some point, a dinosaur body was the most complex vehicle through which the single Consciousness of Source was functioning - Consciousness experiencing life from the perspective of a dinosaur.
Today, the most complex vehicle through which Consciousness functions is your body.
God becoming you.
Don't just think about it, BE IT.
A truly penetrating concept
'Your happiness is not to be found in pleasure and isn't lost because of pain'
When the above concept truly truly penetrates, you'll laugh (or maybe cry) at how long it's been since you thought you'd understood this, and yet, in practice, believed the complete opposite.
You'll marvel at how this could possibly happen given the countless times this point has been hammered home in so many different wisdom teachings; and each time you nodding in agreement with it.
Hint: love, appreciation, acceptance, recognition, approval, validation, success, winning, consideration, politeness are all forms of pleasure and their opposites are pain.
Judgement is a form of guilt or blame.
This is only relevant information because when it arises within us it is in itself our own human unhappiness - suffering. Happiness is the end of suffering.
In essence judgement is blaming oneself or the other for not being good enough, not being the way you think one should be.
This thinking is completely dependant on the belief that in this moment we or the other could be different from how we are right now.
When we look at this dynamic closely, without investment in seeing it a particular way, we can't help but see that how we are in each moment is dependent on a very impersonal process of life which has shaped the current biological and psychological aspects to be exactly the way they are.
If you are not impressed with how you are in this moment then don't waste energy feeling guilty, it's not your doing. Having said this feel free to do the very best you can to make a positive change for the next moment. Be sure to do this without an attachment to the outcome knowing that you're never in control of that.
And if you find judgement arising, judging yourself for that is just intensifying the problem.
Peace for now.
The purpose of life
When unwavering peace of mind in daily living sets in, seeking stops. This tells a lot about what we are really truly searching for, not theoretically but practically.
So what is the purpose of life?
It makes sense that until the illusive purpose of life is fulfilled there will be a sense of dissatisfaction and an intuitive seeking will continue. It follows that when the purpose of life is fulfilled that the intuitive seeking will cease.
The only time seeking completely ceases in daily life is when there is unwavering peace of mind. Unwavering peace of mind stems from the recognition of our unbroken connection to Source.
You can now draw your own conclusion about the purpose of life.
Peace for now.
Are you sure that the objects in life such as a tree or rock have an independent existence apart from the experience of them?
Your body for that matter?
Great news. Suffering stems from a deeply ingrained error.
Life is not what it seems!
Castillo Peace Prize
The prize is awarded not for winning a mental battle but for not having one.
~ Roger Castillo
Quest for Truth
Our essential Being remains untouched by whatever happens in the course of daily living. A groundedness in this Being reveals the preciousness of this gift we are, it means a life lived free of continual resistance and taking life personally.
This core essence of ourself is often forgotten and overlooked, if this happens this amazing quality is temporarily rendered unavailable.
What a shame to be ambivalent to this happening, this quality is who we are at our core. Searching for the Truth amounts to searching for this in us.
If an earnest quest to know this of ourself arises, it's all that's needed.
This is grace
Every time we mistake pleasure as happiness we mistake ourself.
Know thyself, and be happy.
The flow of life
The nature of the flow of life, from the moment we wake to the moment we fall into deep sleep, is always going to be a mix of pleasure and pain.
It will never be pleasure, pleasure, pleasure, pleasure, no matter how much we try to control it. Life is like a river flowing, we don't determine it. This is just a fact, if we look at life without an investment in what we see, this point is undeniable. And yet something inside just doesn't want to acknowledge this and see life truly.
We hold an image of ourselves which feels attacked by unpleasant outcomes.
With this image of ourself we are forced to be in opposition and resistance to the very nature of the flow of life. This is tiring and unfulfilling.
Our true Self is not added to or attacked by outcomes. We all share this common Self, it's there right now. Do you Know it?
Untangling an untangleable knot
Even with all the ups and downs, the process of inner change that life brings about when earnest seeking starts is undeniably a grace filled intricate symphonic masterpiece, where the twists and turns of time which have formed an untangleable knot, get untangled through this mystical movement.
It is so obvious that if it were up to "me" to navigate and orchestrate this mystery I would have messed it up on day one.
We've never been alone, we're always held, it's only the twists and turns which have obscured this and the revelation is always now. Hallelujah
You're off duty
The mind is always working, trying to find a solution. This movement in itself IS the problem. It is the ultimate hamster wheel.
"I want to know my mission in life? what is my purpose?" which seems like such a helpful thought process is in itself the problem. If it drops there is no longer a problem.
It is counter intuitive to think that a problem will be solved by stopping to think about it. But no surprise, when it comes to knowing oneself, which lies outside the realm of causality, the laws of logic no longer apply.
That's why counter intuitive now makes sense. Like, run towards the fear and not away from it.
Ironically it is the mind that needs to understand this in order for a stop to happen.
Grace, is the mind getting this and the spontaneous stopping which follows.
You're off duty, go home to the heart.
The dissolved state of no person
Try to live in the dissolved state of no person and you'll see for yourself that life just won't let that be there indefinitely, that state is just simply not the end of the road.
For a while we'll insist that it's the other way round, that life isn't being lived in the dissolved state of no person because we haven't come to the end of the road. We're sure that the freedom we're looking for means the dissolution of the person. I say this from personal experience.
If we're honest we might even see that this state of no person is being used to bypass the suffering which is still rising from the undissolved root. It is this false root that needs to be dissolved and not the person.
And if we are stuck in the belief that the person will one day completely dissolve, no worries, thankfully we're not in control, life's got this. It takes us where we need to go, sometimes slowly but surely.
Life does this by continually correcting the intellect that got stuck believing it's current position. Then the stuckness unsticks. Life always delivers a new thorn to uproot the one currently embedded in our thumb.
Keep it practical and you're less likely to get caught up in philosophical standpoints. By practical I mean remain focused on what you're really, from your own experience, looking for. You'll find it's happiness for yourself, the person in daily living. Ask yourself, what really is this and what does it really look like?
Don't get stuck on old concepts and teachings that have helped get you this far, even if fleeting experiences seem to support them. That's the trick life plays for a while to keep us stuck. Life sticks us and unsticks us.
These states and realisations of no person are profound, they are there to show us something, to give us new insight, insight which then needs to be integrated into everyday daily living where life is lived 'as if' the person is real. The deep insights remain and become the basis of our ongoing peace of mind, but not as a state or experience but deeply embedded in the being human experience.
We then live life with the deep non-intellectual conviction that we are not the doers, the others are not the doers and that our happiness is not dependent on outcomes in the flow of life. This means the end of suffering in daily living, or in other words continuous unbroken peace of mind even when life is painful, physically, emotionally or finincially.
Jai Sri Ramesh Balsekar
Connection to Source
It is when the ego surrenders the prized belief in personal doership which has been held so dear, like a piece of fool's gold, that the truly precious ever present connection to Source is revealed.
Believing that I am the 'doer' and the other is the 'doer' translates to a view of ourselves as separate and independent entities, that is the separation which has happened. Truly it is not there.
The prize is in the chest
Our true essence isn't touched by life the way that the self image of ourselves is. Return home often to the Heart of Being to keep verifying this for yourself.
And if you don't know this place of Being, I tell you it's the very core of every human, so be curious.
The prize is in the chest not in the head, in the field prior to thought.
And once we're in-touch with the depth of our Being the false stories that were believed to be true no longer have ground to stand on and become ghostlike and eventually fade away completely.
If ignor-ing of the ever present essence of our humanness happens, that's ignor-ance
The deeper the depth we know ourselves to exist at, the less effected or concerned we are with what happens on the surface.
I am That
"I am That, living as This"
~ Sri Ramesh Balsekar
The spiritual heart is the junction point where Impersonal Consciousness of Source links to a particular body, flowing through that vehicle and expressing uniquely as Personal Consciousness, or Rogerness in this case. This is not unique to one or two or just a few but common to all.
Resting in the heart reveals the primordial expression of Source as impersonal I Amness.
This is the only place to intuit what is prior to I Am and to simultaneously live what is after. From here the personal is Known to not be seperate from the impersonal, we are always connected to Source.
The backbone of the personal is I Amness. Live life as the personal knowing the impersonalness of it all. Peace
Gravity is, prior to and independent of the theory of gravity.
Being is, prior to thinking. Be that.
Forced to blame
With a particular belief in place of who we are and therefore of what amounts to an attack against us, we are forced to hold onto the past and continue blaming the other.
Letting go of blame would equate to a deep lack of self respect relative to this self image.
You can't accept.
Acceptance is the absence of non-acceptance.