Quest for Truth
Our essential Being remains untouched by whatever happens in the course of daily living. A groundedness in this Being reveals the preciousness of this gift we are, it means a life lived free of continual resistance and taking life personally.
This core essence of ourself is often forgotten and overlooked, if this happens this amazing quality is temporarily rendered unavailable.
What a shame to be ambivalent to this happening, this quality is who we are at our core. Searching for the Truth amounts to searching for this in us.
If an earnest quest to know this of ourself arises, it's all that's needed.
This is grace
Every time we mistake pleasure as happiness we mistake ourself.
Know thyself, and be happy.
The flow of life
The nature of the flow of life, from the moment we wake to the moment we fall into deep sleep, is always going to be a mix of pleasure and pain.
It will never be pleasure, pleasure, pleasure, pleasure, no matter how much we try to control it. Life is like a river flowing, we don't determine it. This is just a fact, if we look at life without an investment in what we see, this point is undeniable. And yet something inside just doesn't want to acknowledge this and see life truly.
We hold an image of ourselves which feels attacked by unpleasant outcomes.
With this image of ourself we are forced to be in opposition and resistance to the very nature of the flow of life. This is tiring and unfulfilling.
Our true Self is not added to or attacked by outcomes. We all share this common Self, it's there right now. Do you Know it?
Untangling an untangleable knot
Even with all the ups and downs, the process of inner change that life brings about when earnest seeking starts is undeniably a grace filled intricate symphonic masterpiece, where the twists and turns of time which have formed an untangleable knot, get untangled through this mystical movement.
It is so obvious that if it were up to "me" to navigate and orchestrate this mystery I would have messed it up on day one.
We've never been alone, we're always held, it's only the twists and turns which have obscured this and the revelation is always now. Hallelujah
You're off duty
The mind is always working, trying to find a solution. This movement in itself IS the problem. It is the ultimate hamster wheel.
"I want to know my mission in life? what is my purpose?" which seems like such a helpful thought process is in itself the problem. If it drops there is no longer a problem.
It is counter intuitive to think that a problem will be solved by stopping to think about it. But no surprise, when it comes to knowing oneself, which lies outside the realm of causality, the laws of logic no longer apply.
That's why counter intuitive now makes sense. Like, run towards the fear and not away from it.
Ironically it is the mind that needs to understand this in order for a stop to happen.
Grace, is the mind getting this and the spontaneous stopping which follows.
You're off duty, go home to the heart.
The dissolved state of no person
Try to live in the dissolved state of no person and you'll see for yourself that life just won't let that be there indefinitely, that state is just simply not the end of the road.
For a while we'll insist that it's the other way round, that life isn't being lived in the dissolved state of no person because we haven't come to the end of the road. We're sure that the freedom we're looking for means the dissolution of the person. I say this from personal experience.
If we're honest we might even see that this state of no person is being used to bypass the suffering which is still rising from the undissolved root. It is this false root that needs to be dissolved and not the person.
And if we are stuck in the belief that the person will one day completely dissolve, no worries, thankfully we're not in control, life's got this. It takes us where we need to go, sometimes slowly but surely.
Life does this by continually correcting the intellect that got stuck believing it's current position. Then the stuckness unsticks. Life always delivers a new thorn to uproot the one currently embedded in our thumb.
Keep it practical and you're less likely to get caught up in philosophical standpoints. By practical I mean remain focused on what you're really, from your own experience, looking for. You'll find it's happiness for yourself, the person in daily living. Ask yourself, what really is this and what does it really look like?
Don't get stuck on old concepts and teachings that have helped get you this far, even if fleeting experiences seem to support them. That's the trick life plays for a while to keep us stuck. Life sticks us and unsticks us.
These states and realisations of no person are profound, they are there to show us something, to give us new insight, insight which then needs to be integrated into everyday daily living where life is lived 'as if' the person is real. The deep insights remain and become the basis of our ongoing peace of mind, but not as a state or experience but deeply embedded in the being human experience.
We then live life with the deep non-intellectual conviction that we are not the doers, the others are not the doers and that our happiness is not dependent on outcomes in the flow of life. This means the end of suffering in daily living, or in other words continuous unbroken peace of mind even when life is painful, physically, emotionally or finincially.
Jai Sri Ramesh Balsekar
Connection to Source
It is when the ego surrenders the prized belief in personal doership which has been held so dear, like a piece of fool's gold, that the truly precious ever present connection to Source is revealed.
Believing that I am the 'doer' and the other is the 'doer' translates to a view of ourselves as separate and independent entities, that is the separation which has happened. Truly it is not there.
The prize is in the chest
Our true essence isn't touched by life the way that the self image of ourselves is. Return home often to the Heart of Being to keep verifying this for yourself.
And if you don't know this place of Being, I tell you it's the very core of every human, so be curious.
The prize is in the chest not in the head, in the field prior to thought.
And once we're in-touch with the depth of our Being the false stories that were believed to be true no longer have ground to stand on and become ghostlike and eventually fade away completely.
If ignor-ing of the ever present essence of our humanness happens, that's ignor-ance
The deeper the depth we know ourselves to exist at, the less effected or concerned we are with what happens on the surface.
I am That
"I am That, living as This"
~ Sri Ramesh Balsekar
The spiritual heart is the junction point where Impersonal Consciousness of Source links to a particular body, flowing through that vehicle and expressing uniquely as Personal Consciousness, or Rogerness in this case. This is not unique to one or two or just a few but common to all.
Resting in the heart reveals the primordial expression of Source as impersonal I Amness.
This is the only place to intuit what is prior to I Am and to simultaneously live what is after. From here the personal is Known to not be seperate from the impersonal, we are always connected to Source.
The backbone of the personal is I Amness. Live life as the personal knowing the impersonalness of it all. Peace
Gravity is, prior to and independent of the theory of gravity.
Being is, prior to thinking. Be that.
Forced to blame
With a particular belief in place of who we are and therefore of what amounts to an attack against us, we are forced to hold onto the past and continue blaming the other.
Letting go of blame would equate to a deep lack of self respect relative to this self image.
You can't accept.
Acceptance is the absence of non-acceptance.
Hold the list up to the blowing wind
Freedom is synonymous with discovering the many camouflaged layers of accumulated "shoulds" and "should not's" which keep us contracted on the level of thought and from flowing authentically.
This feeling is unmissable - overtime it manifests as a sense of claustrophobia, pent up frustration & resentment and a feeling of misalignment.
When we look closely at this collection of rules it is quite plainly a strategy we hope will deliver the most love from the others and maintain or improve our current safety net - two things in life we mistakenly believe we will die without.
It is for this reason we are so reluctant to hold the list up to the blowing wind and let it go.
Until, one day, the recognition of their toxic undercurrents becomes unavoidable and finally inspires brave change.
And then we wonder what took so long.
An attachment to outcomes and pleasure is what keeps us looking out there through the filter of thought, into the future. This inevitably keeps us unable to see, to Be what we are right now, to know our completeness and self contentedness directly.
In any moment if awareness lands on the obsessive thinking about the future, the thought "my happiness, my completeness is not to be found in pleasure or pain" may arise and cut off the thinking, leaving us, maybe only for a moment, right here and now.
Just stop and Be.
This is love and peace
The recognition that I can't do anything unless it is God's Will is simultaneously the realisation of my unbroken connection to Source.
This is the end of the notion of separation. This is love and peace.
Change of experience
Profound insight or realisation has to translate into significant practical change in our every day living experience. Otherwise, what's the point?
Don't you agree?
A night dream
In an instant, out of nothing arises a world scene, a beach setting maybe. Sun rays warming the skin, waves lapping, sand underfoot and body tingling breath gasping as water slowly rises. Seagull floating across horizon, maybe dolphins frolicking.
The individual objects, all the people, the main character too, ocean, grains of sand, seagulls and umbrellas all experienced as many and seperate.
Analysing a dream though, essentially we know, that they are all intrinsically One with, and part of, the spontaneous arising in the mind of the dreamer.
The nature of a dreamer's mind is Consciousness, and the dream manifests as a creation in that mind, made essentially of consciousness, not seperate from consciousness and witnessed by consciousness.
The dream is experienced from the perspective of the protagonist in the dream, as if consciousness is flowing through its eyes, and sometimes the perspective changes as if witnessed from out of body, however it happens that's how the dream has been created to be experienced - all the while experienced by the only consciousness there is.
The main character, thinks what they are destined to think, moves as they are destined to move, feels as they are destined to feel, all according to the divine script of the dream. The characters have no independent existance outside of the dream regardless of what the character is forced to believe as part of the dream. The storyline of the dream unfolds just like a play or film.
And then in an instance the whole dream dissolves, subsides back into nothing. The protagonist is gone, ocean, seagull too.
Consciousness remains the content gone.
Ready for another dream to appear.
Enjoy your day ~ dream willing
A beneficial belief?
We are bound to repeat activities we believe are beneficial.
Comparison for example.
No need to practice love
We are all already perfect at loving, no need to practice love,
we are just not very practiced at not resenting and not craving.
Speech of Belief in Doership
"I wasn't in control of the beginning and I won't be in control of the ending, but I'm definitely in control of the middle"
~ Belief In Personal Doership
Freedom in Seeing
Eventually we can't help chuckling at how time and time again we See, that our uncomfortableness with life is a commentary which insists the actions or behaviour of the other is the problem.
And in this moment of Seeing there is freedom.
IT is so close
All this talk of God, Consciousness, Awareness, and such wisdom phrases which says "God and you are not two" and so on and so on - just words for a time.
Has it ever struck you, like a lightning bolt, that what is being pointed at is the very formless yet palpable thing flowing out of your eyes right now, the thing reading these words, the thing having the experience you call 'your experience', could that actually be "The Consciousness" that is so highly spoken of?
Could it really be that intimate? That obvious?
Of course, how could it not be, of course here it is, right now, not out there but here, so close that it is what I Am.
Happiness is Attitudinal.
We all know this, it's just easily forgotten, and today is remembrance day.
Pain and Pleasure are Circumstantial; Happiness is Attitudinal.
Giving back a belief
That awesome moment when you realise, that belief you bought came with a receipt.
The consistency of Being.
What really satisfies is consistency towards the inconsistency.
What's at our core is ever present, unchanging and self-contenting in daily living.
Complementaries not contradictions
In theory the sun stays still and the earth moves; in practice the sun rises and sets.
In theory the earth is round; in practice we live life as if it is flat.
This is paradox. It is not so much about picking one OR the other, but rather one AND the other.
They are not contradictions but rather complementaries. Like two sides of a coin.
Understanding what is; the nature of life, is about holding seemingly opposites as complementaries.
Each moment is a spontaneous timeless creation independent of the previous or next;
however in practice it is a creation of time and space, cause and effect, enjoy.
It's pure Grace when we surrendered our Will, realising all of life is pure Grace.
You can't make a wrong decision.
However, the outcomes will not always be what you want or like.