Self Enquiry is an investigation into the nature of Experience.
Relating to the other as a competitor, rival or enemy gets tiring quickly.
Expecting to be able to control life is as fanciful as watching an avalanche thunder down a mountain side and asking it to move a little to the left, and now, a little to the right.
Beneath the noise lies a great well of stillness and silence.
Just stop... and Be, and you will see.
A result of things before
Your thoughts are inevitable.
They are determined by the circumstance you find yourself in and the biological and psychological make-up of your body and mind at the time.
The particulars of a circumstance you find yourself in, are never in your control.
Your body and mind make-up is inevitable and determined by the genetics you have and your up-to-date conditioning at the time, both of which are factors out of your control.
Your genetics are obviously outside your control and your up-to-date conditioning was imposed on you by life as it unfolds moment after moment.
Your thoughts in each moment are inevitable and determined by circumstance, genes and up-to-date conditioning, all of which come before the thought.
Your thoughts are inevitable and predetermined.
This is not just interesting information but essentially necessary information if life is to be lived with equanimity and peace of mind.
That's why it's shared.
Peace for now.
Thy Will be done.
It is the very 'Awareness' that is registering the letters on this page that mystics have been tirelessly pointing at for millennia
- THAT'S HOW CLOSE IT IS - right here, right now, it is never absent. It is that simple.
It is this very Awareness that is described as overlooked or obscured, unaware of itself. And yet, here it is, so close, ever present.
It does not require any thinking to register objects. Nonetheless, it is thought which takes centre stage for a while, and because of its unrelenting 'solo performances' appears to be that which is doing the registering of all objects.
It is the loud and persistent nature of thought which for a while obscures the real hero. Only for as long though as it takes to dawn, that Awareness exists even without thought, and then, the real protagonist is recognised.
The function of Awareness exists even without thought.
Just stop, and BE.
Question all your beliefs, none of them are true.
This is the foundational premise of mystical wisdom. This is the unlocked door you are standing at, the open secret.
When this house of cards falls, you find yourself remaining, untouched, in your pristine beauty.
Relating to thoughts and thinking
Thoughts and thinking by its nature can never be absolute.
Be careful what you wish for
Remember to take regular breaks from your expectations, and notice that whenever you do, life doesn't need to change as much as you thought.
These things happen!
Next time someone knocks a glass of wine over or you drop your phone in the toilet, remind yourself "these things happen!", and maybe, even grin.
It may just become your new mantra.
...it's not as important as you think.
Circumstance & attitude
Pain is circumstantial, suffering on the other hand is always only ever attitudinal.
If this distinction is not realised there is little hope of escaping the prison of Samsara. If it is understood deeply then the prison walls dissolve revealing the priceless real estate on which it was built.
Winning and being right
The 'doer' identity is obsessed with winning and being right. The ingrained belief tells us that winning will make "me" more complete and ultimately is my happiness.
Whereas in practice we will feel for ourselves that this mentality feels uncomfortable and is the very opposite of our happiness. It doesn't allow us to relax and let life flow, and is a wrong idea about who we are.
With this in place we are forced to live life relating to the other as a competitor, rival or enemy, we will always feel an underlying suspicion and be fearful.
Our completeness is not to be found in outcomes, it already is when the belief it isn't falls away.
The personal and impersonal "I"
The sense of 'I am Roger' which permeates the daily experience is there not because of the existence of a personal 'I' belonging to Roger but rather much more because of an impersonal 'I' of Source which identifies to a particular vehicle, ie, the body known as Roger and then manifests as the sense 'I am Roger'.
It is this phenomenon which explains why we've all experienced dreams whereby the main character was different to the character we ordinarily know ourself as (Roger in this case) and yet there is a direct undeniable Knowing that "you" were that character.
This happens because the 'I-ness' which we are so familiar with in the waking state is not so much the I-ness of Roger but rather the impersonal I-ness of Source which illuminates all individuals. And hence that I-ness which we are so intimately familiar with is the same I-ness which illuminates the character in the night dream (even when the character is different to that which we ordinaly know ourselves as) and that's why the dream experience feels intimately familiar to us and we say "it's strange but somehow I knew that I was that person (which is not Roger) in the dream".
News and advertising
Remove one of the major power sources that feeds and sustains our false self image by simply unplugging from news and advertising.
Can you manage that? or is the hypnosis too great?
Could it be that unconditional love is more akin to an unwavering attitude of inclusivity that results when everything that exists is known to have its place and is not resisted, judged or hated, this as opposed to a gushing feeling of affection and attraction to the other regardless of who they are or what they do.
Starting at the outer layers
The teaching comes alive & goes to work, like a sniper picking off misunderstanding.
Do your best...
...with no attachment to outcomes.
To the extent that you find; you are able to set an objective, work in a focussed manner, maybe even be passionate, and yet not be attached to the outcome, then consider that wisdom.
Watch the peace that comes from this attitude to life.
You are an experience.
The entire history of time and space has only ever existed as an experience in the present. Any belief otherwise or in favour, is just an object in the present moment experience of life.
The experience of "you" and "I" are intrinsically aspects of the present moment experience and not separate from it.
Generally speaking, life is an experience including the impression that life (an experience) is an objective reality of time and space viewed from a particular perspective by a particular body.
Be present with the current experience.
Peace for now.
Self image & freedom
A self image which is so far removed from what we really are has been set in place, and that's why feelings which are so far removed from what are true, arise.
Life put it in place, and at some point life starts to remove it - this is the process of freedom from the false idea of what we are, and a natural revelation of what we've always been.
It will make us cry and laugh uncontrollably at the joke of it all - finally revealing a peace and love that pervades it all.
The formless and still
The more connected we are to the aspect of ourself which is formless and still, the less psychologically concerned or involved we are with 'how' life will turn out.
Just Stop, and BE
Have you considered the humorous irony in the fact that in moments when we judge another as being selfish, it's generally because they haven't delivered what we want :) ?
Pain in the moment. These things happen!
The dubious gift of the intellect
The human intellect is complex enough that it is capable of conceptualising its own existence.
It is this capacity which leads to so much suffering about 'why' and 'what should and shouldn't be'.
It is also this capacity which allows us to awaken and be in awe and appreciation in a way in which other animals can't.
"the dubious gift of the intellect" ~ Sri Ramesh Balsekar
Seeing things as they are
Expecting life to be pleasure, pleasure, pleasure is like expecting night to never come, you will be continually dissapointed.
The flow of life will always be sometimes pleasure and sometimes pain, that's its nature, so don't be surprised when that's how it turns out.
No need to be pessimistic, but plenty of benefit in being realistic.
The good news is that when a deeper aspect of ourself is Known for what it really is then the presence of pain becomes less significant and am underlying peace with life is there.
Start seeing certain mundane aspects of life as they really are and you might be surprised at how much else gets seen for what it is.
Comparison - great for playing the game 'spot the difference', not so good when playing the game of life.
The only way
When two chemicals come in contact with each other they are destined to react a very, very particular way - ie, exactly as it happens.
How many ways can you react in a particular circumstance?
Expectation reduces life down to something it will never be, and is the father of dissapointment.
Jnana is Bhakti, Bhakti is Jnana
The flowering of Jnana Yoga is Bhakti, and the flowering of Bhakti Yoga is Jnana.
The complete realisation that 'I'm not the doer' (Jnana) reveals that each thought, each movement, each breath has always been and will always be in total service to God (Bhakti).
And on the other hand, the total dedication of all we do as an offering in service to God (Bhakti), reveals that 'I have never been the doer' (Jnana).
Two paths, two methodologies, revealing the one Truth. Two facets, love and wisdom, of the one diamond.