A gift that comes out of the flip flopping phase
One of the biggest benefits which comes out of the 'flip/flop/flip/flop' phase is the clarity, the recognition beyond just what someone has pointed at, for the first time, of what we are REALLY looking for.
In a certain moment, after having experienced this seemingly unfortunate and ongoing sliding in and out of peaceful and suffering phases, the experiential contrast between the two can become glaringly clear. It is seen that in practical terms the:
'Flip' stage equates to a sense of ease with whatever may be happening in the flow of life,
'Flop' phase equates to a resistance and uncomfortableness with what's happening in the flow of life.
When the contrast between the two becomes clear experientially and in practical terms, the intellect may register a very important conclusion;
It may insightfully proclaim, based on a recognition of the contrast of the two states, based not just on what someone else has told us but rather from really having registered it clearly for oneself for the first time:
"All that I'm REALLY looking for is the end of the 'Flop' !!!"
"I'm NOT REALLY looking for an ecstatic experience, I'm not looking for my life situation to change radically, I'm just looking for the end of the 'Flop', when the 'Flip' is there all is ok, really more than ok. 'Flip' is the absence of the 'Flop' not the gaining of anything, Wow, I din't really really get this for myself before"
Peace of mind is what we are REALLY looking for. And peace of mind is just the absence of an uncomfortableness, the absence of the different forms of suffering which arise.
If this gets registered, a most important recognition has happened and so much confusion that has stood in the way of what we are REALLY looking for can fall away.
The seeking becomes much more focussed, awareness plus the intellect then start to see the remaining subtle dynamics which still remain in the system which are forcing the movement out of peace.
Additionally, a whole lot of interest in topics which we thought were important fall away when it's seen that they may not actually be that relevant for what we REALLY want.
We have more clarity, our understanding has gone deeper, our earnestness has grown. The seeking becomes much more focussed.
Peace for now
Fear of death
We're not really scared of dying because we're afraid we will no longer exist, or because of the uncertainty, but much more so because we have forgotten that we exist fully right now.
When you die
When it comes time to die, die knowing that in each moment you did exactly what you thought or felt to do.
A few half truths here and there
The human being is not JUST a body but rather is the blend of a body AND consciousness.
The consciousness aspect surprisingly goes unnoticed and it's not uncommon for people to live an entire lifetime disconnected from a very significant aspect of themselves, and as a result, have the opposite of a well rounded experience of themselves - this is experientially very uncomfortable.
From some perspective this can be seen as a tragedy.
In order to address this oversight - this one sided obsession with the body - Nisargadatta Maharaj and others, in fact whole teaching traditions, would make bold statements like "I am not the Body, I Am Awareness/Consciousness" or "The world is illusory, the body is illusory, your thoughts and feelings are illusory, you are not that, you are the Self in which all arises and is seen".
Are these sorts of statement absolutely true? Or, could it be, that in order to break an obsession with one aspect of ourself (which is preventing a more balanced, well rounded experience) it is necessary to trick the mind into shifting attention from the aspect it is overly identified with to the aspect it is overlooking.
And what better way to aid this shift than to introduce the notions of 'Truth versus illusion', 'Absolute versus the changing', 'what you are versus what you are not'.
In other words we need to be told we are absolutely not the body, not the thoughts and so on, and simultaneously told that we are exclusively Consciousness or Awareness or No Thing, in order to get the job done, at least that is one way.
Couldn't we consider it kind or compassionate that someone has dedicating their life to do whatever is needed to bring attention on that which has been overlooked, to bring about the end of this tragedy?
A few half truths here and there are not so bad after all, right?
They will all get sorted out in due course anyway.
When and if it happens, the recognition of the awareness or consciousness aspect of the human can be called Awakening, awakening to the aspect of ourselves that we were asleep to.
Integration is the process after awakening where we start becoming less identified with any aspect of ourself. And after being [compassionately] told emphatically for years that we are consciousness or nothing, that the person doesn't exist etc, and having shifts that may have been taken as 'proofs' of these statements, we may have some issues to deal with for a while 😂.
So after life has delivered our non-dual rehabilitation program (integration) we just find ourselves living as a well balanced human being in a world of time and space.
We now find, as a result of all these realisations, that all aspects of ourself are held in a healthy perspective and suffering which resulted from an over-identification with one aspect or the other falls away.
Peace for now
Attachment to outcomes
It's our attachment2outcomes that becomes a Dictator, and one day we WILL break free.
The long list of "should's" and "shouldn'ts" have been put in place by our attachment2outcomes which essentially is the deeply ingrained belief that my happiness, my completeness is to be found in outcomes, in pleasure and not pain. The pleasure we are most attached to is love from the other and material gain.
The list of should's and should nots are a powerful unconscious strategy to gain as much of these pleasures as possible and what this does is cut us off from accessing and following a feeling of what we really want to do in each moment. This is inauthenticity and it feels very uncomfortable. The uncomfortableness accumulates over time and manifests as an unsatisfactory sense in life.
Start learning how to do what you feel like more, start with the small things first, and soon enough you'll find it no longer makes sense to live life any other way.
You are not Awareness
The majority of spiritual concepts are put forward not because they are true but rather to expose and loosen an existing and opposite ingrained belief.
We could say that this journey is ultimately a journey of freedom from belief.
Take for example the concept "you are not the body you are formless awareness which pervades everything", this concept is not entirely true, however it can effectively bring about the dislodging of a limiting ingrained belief.
Let's then hope that the concept that has helped remove an ingrained belief doesn't in itself become the new problem.
You are not Awareness. Even if a new state or way of directly perceiving life sets in and suggests you are, look at it and see if maybe there is another explanation. We so often overlay onto our new experience the descriptions given to us in a teaching and then unquestioningly take that to be the fact. This is not a questioning of the validity of the description as a methodology, it was unquestionably useful in order to bring about change but not necessarily the 'truth' of the matter, and for a while we can be quite deluded about what's what.
In practical terms you are a complete person. A person is the combined result of Consciousness (awareness is a primary faculty of consciousness) functioning through the body, and hence coloured by the characteristics of the body, this results in a personal experience in each moment, an experience of being that individual and of living life, or being lived.
Even if the sense in the moment is highly impersonal, it is still an individual personal experience which has become in parts coloured with a sense of impersonalness, nonetheless, in practical terms you are still the person.
Remember this when it comes to teachings and how to relate to them (and what is written here also fits into that category):
'whatever is written or spoken is always a concept, no sage, no matter how great, has ever uttered a word of 'Truth', the only Truth in the manifestation is the impersonal sense of 'I Am', I exist now.' ~ Sri Ramesh Balsekar
"use this thorn to remove the thorn embedded in your thumb, but then be sure to throw both thorns away" ~ Sri Ramana Maharshi
Don't worry, life has this under control, the process will take you there. What is written above is actually just a description of what may happen, and not a prescription of something you have to do.
In my experience life takes us beyond any states and mindset of not being the person to a standpoint where I see I have always been a person, always will be, and for a while was a person with some fairly inaccurate interpretations of life, like, "I am not the person".
One of the biggest intellectual shortcomings we tend to have is that we find we are incapable of hearing a concept without either taking it as Truth (turning it into a belief), or dismissing it as entirely wrong.
Coming to have a distinct understanding of the difference between the nature of a concept and the nature of turning that concept into a belief, hence an understanding of the nature of belief is paramount in this transformation process. If we come to see that in principle all and every belief is in principle fundamentally flawed (on the basis that we are incapable of knowing anything absolutely, but rather we will know things only relatively), then we can become free from the error of belief.
If we start to recognise how we automatically relate to concepts as Truth, this seeing can become the basis of the collapse of our entire upheld system of belief.
It is the cutting of the Gordian knot of belief.
The core of the person is consciousness.
Peace for now
The flow of life...
... is sometimes pleasure and sometimes pain.
The unfolding of life is in some moments as we would like and in other moments not as we would like - it's just the nature of life.
The sooner this is truly recognised the sooner the attitudinal resistance - which assumes that life should turn out our way - will dissolve.
That is what peace of mind regardless of circumstance looks like.
The reason this peace can be there is because pleasure or pain don't actually touch what we are at our core.
Peace for now
The inner and outer gifts
Isn't it true, we are given gifts in life! Gifts of friendship and love for example, and sometimes these gifts are given only for a short time - rarely are we given a gift which remains consistent - it's just not the nature of life's gifts. Yet, nonetheless, they are still precious gifts given.
Having said this there is one very special gift, the gift of our innate Being, the core of each and every human - this is always consistently here.
When the focus turns inwards to the precious gift that is always consistent, then the attitude to the outer gifts adjusts naturally. And then, when an outer gift is no longer there, the attitude is not anymore of loss but rather of appreciation for what was given, even if only for a short time. The whole relationship to the transience of life changes.
Peace for now.
Happy New Year to You
In these 24 hours you will be wished happiness and in-turn will wish happiness on others more than at any other time in the upcoming year.
Maybe it's a good time, just for fun, to pause and consider exactly what, in practical terms, that constitutes.
Peace for now
PS: For those that want a little hint,
happiness doesn't come from outcomes, it isn't a feeling of excitement or joy, or pleasure, not even bliss or ecstasy but rather is described in the second last line of the post above.
The undeniable, ever present fact, I AM
The amount of peace in your life is directly correlated with how quickly it is directly known that a particular situation, positive or negative, doesn't touch the core of who you are.
Whatever happens, I still am. It is only thought which fails to recognise this. The fact remains.
Peace for now.
Why we are disturbed by unfavoured outcomes
Why is it that we get so disturbed when outcomes are not as we would like?
It's really quite simple, it's because (and this really is quite an oddity given we have so much experience of life), by enlarge we still haven't realised that life is a force unto its own (which we are intrinsically part of) and sometimes life delivers what we want, and sometimes it doesn't - that's it.
Once this has become crystal clear to us then we stop expecting life to be different, it just doesn't surprise us when things turn out the way they do.
We stop resisting what happens in each moment.
And with this attitude of acceptance and understanding we still have the intelligence and freedom to do whatever we can in each given moment to improve a situation, with the knowing that the outcome is not in our control.
The other factor that forces us to get so disturbed is that humanity tends to be out of touch with the part of themselves which is never affected by outcomes.
The core of the human is unaffected by what happens in the flow of life and it's being familiar with that aspect of ourself which delivers unwavering peace and contentment in daily living.
Peace for now
The Spirit of Christmas
Rest in the Christmas Spirit - the undeniable, pure existence, at the core of your humanness.
I wish you all the unwavering peace that stems from there.
Peace and loveRoger
Life only ever turns out one way.
A thought or feeling, an action for that matter, are all simply products of a biological organism reacting to stimuli. This sounds very scientific and mechanical doesn't it? Not very human, right?
Nonetheless, the fact is, that for as long as we don't see things with clarity we will continue to experience life with an internal discomfort.
The vast majority of us don't see what happens in life as an impersonal happening, but rather are convinced that there is a 'doer' that is responsible for everything that happens through the body and mind.
If looked at closely it becomes evident that this supposed entity, 'this fictitious doer', simply doesn't exist. All there really is, is a complex set of automatic biological and psychological reactions which happen, and happen without the need of a 'controller' to produce them.
From this recognition, witnessing the wonder of life happen (including all the functions of the body) is so much more of a likelihood.
This is the game changer. This is the waking up to the fact that the belief that I am the 'doer' is a complete fiction. There is great liberation in this imagined entity collapsing.
This imagined entity is in itself just a thought.
Peace for now.
We are destined to live happily
Evolution is a process of growth and adaptation to an environment in order to optimise existence in that environment.
So far humanity has evolved sufficiently such that we can prosper very competently in life.
Unwavering happiness in daily living is just a continuation of this evolutionary process. In due course we will not only be able to prosper, but to be happy as well.
Happiness is very much part of evolution, it is the human evolving in a way that it no longer functions a particular way because it makes life better.
It takes experience for evolving to happen. To date, the intelligence of life has been focused on optimising survival, and the natural progression after survival is ensured is towards happiness.
Remember, evolution is a very gradual process. For so long the focus has been on gaining and attaining to survive, and a shift on an instinctual level to temper this focus can take time.
For at least several thousands of years some humans have been at the front of this evolution curve and have had enough experience to know that life is vastly improved when certain thinking patterns are dropped. These people have felt compelled to share this 'wisdom' with as many others as possible. This movement is part of the impersonal and very intelligent evolutionary process.
Once an individual starts experiencing a shift from suffering to peace, and the difference is recognised to be directly linked to thinking patterns (ie, suffering is seen to be attitudinal) then a change in attitude happens, the person evolves.
Happiness is the end of suffering coupled with awareness of, or a connection with, the inner. This connection was foregone because of our obsession with the outer. Suffering is based on a particular way of relating to life and once we start experiencing it with less suffering (thanks to hints that life starts delivering) and it becomes experientially known to be a far more optimal way of living; then it's inevitable that the change continues and an adaptation, evolution, happens.
Spiritual teachings are just a methodology to bring about change. We will continue to evolve past the teachings themselves until eventually we just find ourselves living happily. In other words, we find ourselves no longer producing certain thought patterns and feelings.
A teaching will do what it needs to do and will say what it needs to say in order to affect change. Always be ready to move on and let go of what you believe to be true.
It turns out that what we are as humans is very special at our core. It turns out that once certain thought patterns fall away, the sole, undeniable fact that I Am, I exist now, is enough to be happy. Our Being is self contenting.
Peace for now
Empathy and compassion
Empathy and compassion is much less about acts of kindness and much more about an attitude (which you could call kind to everyone) which stems from a clarity that sees that whichever of the vast range of human behaviours or emotions arise in each of us at any time is because that's the way each of us is built to function, it really isn't personal.
Remember, the body grows after the union of the egg and sperm, it grows like a plant grows, it's just much more complex. At some point the organs have grown sufficiently to start working, the heart grows and starts beating, and the brain grows and starts thinking and feeling, and so on. We have grown into this moment.
If I can understand why the other is cruel, why the other suffers, why the other is angry, or sad, happy or glad, excited or mad, if I can understand why the other forgot, or was kind, attracted to me or attracted to another, then I will also understand why it is I act and feel the way I do.
As long as it is all seen as the very complex movement of humanity, not personal but a happening, then there will automatically be empathy and compassion.
Empathy and compassion is the absence of judgement, blame and shame.
From that ground love and kindness can grow.
Earnestness and devotion
Today marked the end of a three week adventure that these twelve inspiring people embarked on with earnestness and devotion.
And although it's the end of a chapter it's really just the beginning of living life filled with more space and peace.
We were bound not to fail, life was on our side, we were armed with trust and a willingness to see what happens and Grace didn't fail to fill the space.
I sincerely thank my new friends for showing up with such commitment and courage, with openness and vulnerability.
I see an intrepid group of changed people who are undoubtedly much closer to what is truly sought.
Let yourself be lived from an instruction beyond your thinking mind and follow your heart, life is a divine happening - that was the message - life can flow smoothly with you doing in each moment exactly what you feel to do, and all along with the deep conviction that it's not your doing.
If you feel a 'yes' inside to join me for the next retreat in April - don't ignore it.
We Satsanged together, early morning meditated, we cooked and ate together, we walked in nature, laughed and cried, danced together, made new friends and touched a part of ourselves that has been covered up for too long, covered up by our habitual outward looking.
And all along, dear Ramesh sat in with us, what a blessing.I'm impressed no end at how magically this journey of life unfolds.
Peace for now.
The bottomless well of pure infinite potentiality
Life is taking us on a journey where eventually life itself is known from the cusp of where pure infinite potentiality actualises into the ever-changing expression of that potentiality.
From this vantage point there is never a lack of appreciation of Source or God.
A life lived with the resulting effortless surrender to the undefinable yet directly touchable God force which is at the core of our very own existence transforms into a life overflowing with mystery, wonder, love and peace, seen to be brimming full with divinity.
Devoid of this appreciation, life is bound to feel like a struggle, unfullfilling and fearful, we feel disconnected and lonely.
Meditate and dive into the depths of your humanness and at the core you'll bump into the still bottomless well of pure potentiality.
You'll come to know the primordial expression of this well of potential as the undeniable sense that I Am, I exist now, and known from the depth of our Being this existence now is more than enough.
Peace for now.
STOP and be still
When we push past all of the explanations, our happiness in life comes with the grounded recognition and self confirming appreciation of our very own core.
STOP, and be still.
Peace for now.
The person who believes the person doesn't exist
You will laugh loudly one day at all the things you have believed, including ironically the content of wisdom teaching pointers that are 'concepts' and not 'truth', concepts designed to undo beliefs . You'll laugh at how after believing certain concepts, states of consciousness changed, life was experienced from a different perspective and you interpreted what was newly revealed to be something you were told it was, like for example, the Absolute, or proof that there is no person or maybe that you are not the body, that you are Awareness or I Am.
Humans are prone to believe.
See the relative nature of life experience and thought, and then beliefs which take things absolutely will crumble.
Peace for now.
My wisdom went out the window
From a young age life shapes us in such a way that we are compelled to take life personally.
Then at some point, if we are lucky, we find ourselves conveyor belted through a process that demonstrates that it's our attitude which is most crucial to a happy life and we see that it's possible for our conditioned and ingrained 'doership & attachment' attitude to start dissolving as the dynamics of life are seen more clearly.
As this dissolving progresses we find ourselves standing in a place where we are still fully participatory in life, still unable to magically avoid the pain of outcomes or control pleasure at will, and yet find that attitudinally we don't take these outcomes (life) personally anymore.
Nevertheless, even after the impersonal dynamics of life have become clearly seen, often in such a way that it feels like "it's done!", don't be surprised that you find yourself from time to time catapulted back to a perspective where you get completely lost in suffering - your wisdom has effectively gone out the window.
In other words, don't be surprised that from time to time, you find yourself faced with the slightest of unpleasant results and you can't help but take them personally - your understanding, unexplainably it seems, has gone out the window.
Take solace in knowing that this is completely normal and understandable. Simply put, this phenomena is the emerging of deeply ingrained still unresolved, condensed energies from the past - essentially beliefs of doership and attachment to pleasure - emerging to the surface.
Don't worry the clarity is still there, it's just that a deeper layer of old misunderstanding is now able to surface to the conscious level to be atoned and released.
This happens because a previously existing load of misunderstanding that was on top which was effectively keeping this load suppressed, has been seen through and now its the turn of this batch of energy to be exposed and atoned. In effect you could look at it as though the clarity is drilling its way deeper into the system and has broken through the chains and trapdoors that were keeping this load packed in the basement. This basement is now just being emptied out, a messy job sometimes but worth doing - you need the space.
Don't worry, even though the load can seem never ending it's not, as the intellectual understanding becomes more and more complete and robust it sinks deeper and deeper uprooting any remaining loads of guilt and shame, hatred and blame, until one day the understanding becomes 'total'.
'Total' doesn't really mean that you now have a new load of useful knowledge, what it really means is the absence of misunderstanding, no more historic load of misunderstanding remaining to surface, and our natural attitude of the heart gets to function without being covered over.
Peace for now.
Happiness is peace of mind
Circumstance in life is only ever either pleasurable or painful.
Your happiness or unhappiness in life is dependent on your attitude to circumstance and not the circumstance itself.
What good news.
No hot water!!
Your happiness is never to be found in the flow of life. The flow of life is only ever outcomes, either pleasurable or painful.
If you're in a shower and suddenly the hot water stops working, that's pain in the moment (relative to your biological preference for hot water).
If a friend lets you down, that is pain in the moment. And if a friend excels that's pleasure in the moment, either pleasurable or painful relative to your biological preferences.
Your happiness is never to be found in pleasure or pain. It is the deeply ingrained false belief that it is - that we are defined by outcomes - which flowers into suffering so often during the day when the flow of life does what it does - deliver outcomes - sometimes pleasurable, sometimes painful.
Even in the face of pleasure and pain, I Am, I exist.
Peace for now
I always function differently...
... but I can't function differently.
However anyone functions in life - thought or thinking be it positive or negative, an action or deed be it helpful or a hinderance, words spoken or a conversation be they kind or unkind, reactions or responses wise or ignorant, a feeling or emotion, suffering or peace of mind, curled up in a ball unable to face the world, or full of excitement and enthusiasm - anything at all that happens through the body in any moment is a result of only two factors and the circumstance the person finds themself in.
These two factors:
1) the body's genetic makeup; and
2) the up-to-date conditioning piled on by the flow of life and accumulated from at least the point of conception.
If there is no third factor, is it realistic to expect anyone, including ourselves, to be able to function differently in any moment to the way they do?
Even the thoughts that sometimes arise just before we're about to do something that may say something like "actually, you know better than this, don't do that, it will only make things worse", even this thought which might actually precede us acting differently to the initial impulse, even that thought which we are sure is our "doing" is a result of these two factors.
This means that, however the functioning of the body unfolds, it's the only way it could given the circumstance and the person's makeup in that moment (based on the 2 factors).
This is not pointed out for philosophical entertainment or debate, but rather because it encourages and allows for a very practical contemplation. We're not debating whether other life forms exist, but rather pointing at a very simple and observable dynamic in daily life.
And why is this point that the human is forced to act exactly the way they do, important?
Because so much of our human suffering is based on the non-recognition of this fact. So much of life is spent regretting and blaming or feeling proud and frankly that is an uncomfortable way to experience life. Even this functioing can't be different, until it's different. This suffering is also based on our genes and up-to-date conditioning and the circumstance we find ourselves in.
This message is just new conditioning from the flow of life. It may or may not alter someone's up-to-date conditioning, and how it does or doesn't effect the up-to-date conditioning is not in anyone's control.
If the root is uprooted the weed dies.
Peace for now.
Condition of the unconditioned
The human being is completely and utterly conditioned by life....to think that they are completely and utterly unconditioned by life.
An instrument programmed...
... to think it's not an instrument.
If thought continues to include the false notion that thought is a volitional function of an independent separate person in control of when and what is thought, then the lynch pin of suffering (belief in personal doership) remains in place.
Thinking is a byproduct of the body&brain's genes and up-to-date conditioning interacting with the circumstance it finds itself in, none of these factors have ever been in it's control.
Thinking happens, there isn't a volitional 'thinker'.
The deeply ingrained belief in personal doership keeps this impersonal dynamic from being appreciated because whenever anything happens through the body/brain (including thinking) it's automatically assumed by thought to be the result of "me the doer".
This thought of 'being the doer' is just an inaccurate assessment of what's happening produced by a programmed instrument.
There never has been, and never will be, a "doer", no one has ever "done" anything. Everything is a happening according to Source or God.
Blame, guilt, pride, worry and expectation all ride on the back of this unsubstantiated belief in personal doership. This is why suffering is sometimes referred to as unreal and why it can end. It's an error resting on an error, which is meant to be there until as destined the instrument is reconditioned to no longer create the error.
Peace for now.
How can we possibly lose ourself?
A very strange thing happens in life: the very essence of who we are fades into non-recognition.
Understandably so when this happens, the experience of life starts to feel uncomfortable, and as the disconnection grows the uncomfortableness intensifies.
The returning of attention onto this essential core of our existence is a game changer.
This shift in attention is a shift from head to heart, a shift from experiencing everything through a filter of belief, judgement and thought to simply finding that there is another podium to stand at.
Drop out of the obsessive thinking about how things should or shouldn't be, about yourself and the other, and in that moment you'll find you ARE, untouched by all that's happened, and you'll smile. That's your reconnection to Source.
Peace for now.
Why peace and contentment is for all of us
On the physical level all humans share commonalities, for example we all, without fail, have a heart.
All humans also WITHOUT FAIL, in fact it is our very core, include another most precious quality. It is this quality which is our life line, it is the source of relaxation, unwavering contentment and peace here in life.
Here's the twist in the plot, this precious quality is by default covered up by a load of suppressed guilt and blame from the past, and expectation in the future, and because of this load life is not experienced as contenting and peaceful.
Spiritual teachings in different ways are there to release this for the purpose of peace of mind in daily living.
When a focus on spirituality comes into one's life this is an intensifying of this ongoing process of realising this core of our being through the process of undermining what's in the way.
This is completely available for all of us, it is simply a matter of the right strokes being delivered by life, and this is already happening. So even if in this moment you're feeling lost allow a ray of gratitude to come in for this fact, and for those who in this moment are clear that this is what's happening then bathe in the grace and gratitude.
This core is covered up by a load of guilt and blame from the past, and a continued similar attitude to life in the present.
You are not the doer, the other is not the doer and your happiness isn't dependent on outcomes in the flow of life. It is the deep seeing of this which uproots the load of past and future which then naturally and effortlessly allows a resting in the core of who we are to happen.
Peace for now.
A little awakening
Follow these suggestions step by step if you feel inclined.
(or listen to a 4 minute recorded version at the bottom or here)
Sit quietly and still, become aware of the environment you're in. Allow your center of consciousness to drift down out of the head into the chest as if dragged down by gravity (this is its home).
Soften and open your gaze, look at the vista infront of you with this soft open gaze, notice your periferal vision, left and right, above and below, and notice how the entire visual experience arises within what you could call the field of vision. Stay here for half a minute or so allowing everything to be as it is.
Notice that the visual experience is there regardless of whether you label it or not, so for a while, no need to label. This is much more an exercise about becoming aware of (bringing attention to) the actual functioning of sight as a sense, the seeing itself.
For a minute or so bring attention to this seeing function free of labelling and just see the entire vista all at once as a single visual experience. Keep the head still but allow the the eyes to move around very slowly so that attention doesn't get fixated on any one spot, this can help thinking to remain absent. All the while noticing the full vista as a single visual experience, a bit like a painting.
Remember this is about becoming aware of the seeing itself independent of the functioning of thought. Just bring attention to the act or sense of sight itself.
Then, from this position of being aware of seeing play with this notion: even though everything points to the fact that it is the eyes that are doing the seeing, they aren't. The seeing is happening from outside of the body, not through the eyes, but from some place behind your head.
This is not something to think about, this is something to be experienced, here it is again:
Once attention is on the act or sense of seeing itself, play with this notion: even though everything points to the fact that it is the eyes that are doing the seeing, they aren't. The seeing is happening from outside the body, not through the eyes, but from some place behind the head.
What is seen in the visual experience is all contained within that which sees it, a field of awareness you could say. Nothing is outside it, the body is a visual object within the overall visual experience.
The body is not the Subject as often felt, it is not what is aware, it is what's 'awared'. That which is aware, which is experience itself, pervades the entire space and all the visual objects. Nothing is outside of the experience.
Don't think about this, be the act of seeing, be Awareness, the body is an object 'awared' not the Subject.
'Tis this which makes life meaningful
Become often, consciously aware and amazed that you are here now, in life, that you exist.
Not aware that you exist as this or that, succeeding or failing, happy or suffering, but rather stop and BE that innate and undeniable feeling or sense 'I Am', 'I exist', prior to all those labels.
This is what gives life meaning.
Peace for now